"Who would prize the tainted posies,
Which on ev'ry breast are worn?
Who could pluck the spotless roses,
From their never touched thorn?"The feeling expressed in these lines will be acknowledged by every man of sense and delicacy. "No such man ever prized a heart much hacknied in the ways of love."——It was with exquisite pain, that Count Altenberg had heard all that had been said of Caroline——he did not give credit to half the insinuations; he despised those who made them, he knew that some of the ladies spoke from envy, others from the mere love of scandal, but still, altogether, an impression unfavorable to Caroline, or rather unfavorable to his passion for Caroline, was left on his mind.——The idea that she had been suspected, the certainty that she had been talked of, that she had even been named as one who had coquetted with many admirers——the notion that she had been in love——passionately in love——all this took from the freshness, the virgin modesty, the dignity, the charm, with which she had appeared to his imagination, and without which she could not have touched his heart.——A heart not to be easily won——a heart how unlikely to be won by such a woman as Miss Georgiana Falconer.
In his own country, at the court where he resided, in the different parts of the continent which he had visited, Germany, Poland, Swisserland, France, he had seen women celebrated for beauty and for wit, many of the most polished manners, many of the highest accomplishments, some of exquisite sensibility, a few with genuine simplicity of character, but in all there had been something, which had prevented his wishing to make any one of them the companion of his life. In some there was a want of good temper, in others of good sense; there was some false taste for admiration or for notoriety——some love of pleasure, or some love of sway, inconsistent with his idea of the perfection of the female character, incompatible with his plans of life, and with his notions of love and happiness.
Ardent and of strong affections, which had not yet met with their proper objects, his mind had turned from love to ambition——not to intrigues for his own aggrandizement, not to the petty politics of a court——his was a glorious, generous ambition, the desire to serve his country by noble means, to be a statesman in the largest sense of the word. So far Commissioner Falconer was right. Count Altenberg's ruling passion was ambition——was at the time the Commissioner first saw him. But another, a softer passion, had since been awakened.
It was reserved for Count Altenberg, to meet in England ... in England, where education, institution, opinion, manners, the habits of society, and of domestic life, happily combine to give the just proportion of all that is attractive, useful, ornamental, and amiable, to the female character. ... It was reserved for Count Altenberg, to meet in England a woman, who to the noble simplicity of character, that was once the charm of Swisserland, joined the polish, the elegance, that was once the pride of France; a woman possessing an enlarged, cultivated, embellished understanding, capable of comprehending all his views as a politician, and a statesman; yet without the slightest wish for power, or any desire to interfere in public business, or political intrigue.——Graced with knowledge and taste for literature and science, capable of being extended to the highest point of excellence, yet free from all pedantry, or pretension——with wit, conversational talents, and love of good society, without that desire of exhibition, that devouring, diseased appetite for admiration, which preys upon the mind insatiably to it's torture, to it's destruction; without that undefinable, untranslateable French love of succès de sociélé, which substitutes a precarious, factitious, intoxicated existence in public, for the safe self-approbation, the sober, the permanent happiness of domestic life.——It was reserved for Count Altenberg, to meet in England with a woman of sensibility, exquisite, generous as any German romance could conceive, yet without exaggeration in expression, or extravagance in conduct, repressed, regulated, treasured for the happiness of him who could merit such a heart.——It was reserved for Count Altenberg, to find in England a woman, raised by "divine philosophy [Note: Milton.]," far above all illiberal prejudice, but preserving a just and becoming sense of religion, unobtrusive, mild, and yet firm.——It was reserved for Count Altenberg, to find in England one, who appeared all that his warmest imagination had pictured, all that his sober judgment approved, and that his fondest wishes could desire in a wife. Every thing that he had seen of Caroline had confirmed his first hope, and exalted his future expectation——but, by what he had just heard, his imagination was checked in full career, suddenly, and painfully. His heavenly dream was disturbed by earthly voices——voices of malignant spirits——mysterious——indistinct——yet alarming to all his hopes.——He had not conceived it possible, that the breath of blame could approach such a character as Caroline's——he was struck with surprise, and shocked on hearing her name profaned by common scandal, attributed to different lovers, the victim of a disappointed passion, and the scorn of one of the most distinguished families in England.——Such were the first painful thoughts and feelings of Count Altenberg.——At the time he heard the whispers, which gave rise to them, he had been actually planning a letter to his father, declaring his attachment to Caroline——he now resolved not to write. But he determined to satisfy himself as to the truth or falsehood of these reports or insinuations. He was not a man to give ear lightly to calumny——he detested it's baseness; he would not suffer himself for a moment to brood over suspicion, nor yet would he allow himself for present ease and pleasure, to gloss over, without examination, that which might afterwards recur to his mind, and might create future unjust or unhappy jealousy. Either the object of his hopes was worthy of him, or not——if not worthy, better tear her from his heart before she had further hold of it——if worthy, the sooner all doubts could be removed the better. This determined him to go immediately to Mrs. Hungerford's——her son had been named as the person, to whom Caroline had been attached——at Hungerford-Castle she had, it was said, seen Mr. Barclay, and Sir James Harcourt, with whom she had been accused of coquetting. Count Altenberg trusted to his own address and penetration for discovering all he wished to know, without betraying any peculiar interest in the subject.
The first sight of Mrs. Hungerford, the gracious dignity of her appearance and manners, the first five minutes' conversation he had with her, decided him in the opinion, that common report had done her justice; and raised in his mind extreme anxiety to know her opinion of Caroline.——But, though he began the history of Zara, and of the play at Falconer-Court, for the express purpose of introducing the Percys, in speaking of the company who had been present, yet, conscious of some unusual emotion when he was going to pronounce that name, and fancying some meaning in Mrs. Hungerford's great attention as he spoke, he mentioned almost every other guest, even the most insignificant, without speaking of Caroline, or of any of her family.——He went back to his friend Colonel Hungerford. Mrs. Hungerford opened a letter-case, and took from it the last letter she had received from her son since he left England, containing some interesting particulars, which she thought his friend might like to see.——Towards the conclusion of the letter, the writing changed to a small feminine hand——and all India vanished from the view of Count Altenberg, for, as he turned the page, he saw the name of Caroline Percy—— "I suppose I ought to stop here——" said he, offering the letter to Mrs. Hungerford;—— "No,"——she replied, "the whole letter was at his service, they were only a few lines from her daughter Lady Elizabeth."
These few lines mentioned Caroline Percy among the dear and intimate friends whom she regretted most in Europe, and to whom she sent a message expressive of the warmest affection and esteem.——Count Altenberg felt his heart lightened, and a glow of joy instantly diffused itself over his whole frame. As far as related to Colonel Hungerford, he was sure that all he had heard was false. There was little probability that his wife should, if those circumstances were true, be Caroline's most intimate friend.——Before these thoughts had well arranged themselves in his head, a pleasing, sprightly young lady came into the room, who he at first thought was Mrs. Hungerford's daughter; but she was too young to answer exactly the description of Mrs. Mortimer.
"Lady Mary Pembroke, my niece,"——said Mrs. Hungerford——
Her Ladyship was followed by Mr. Barclay——Count Altenberg seemed in a fair way to have all his doubts satisfied.——But, in the hurry of his mind, he had almost forgot to ask for Mrs. Mortimer.
"You will not see her to day," said Mrs. Hungerford, "she is gone to see some friends, who live at a distance too great for a morning visit.——But I hope," continued Mrs. Hungerford, turning to Lady Mary, "that my daughter will make me amends for losing a day of her company, by bringing me our dear Caroline to morrow."
"Is there a chance of Caroline's coming to us?" cried Lady Mary, with affectionate eagerness.
"Is there any hope of our seeing Miss Caroline Percy?" said Mr. Barclay, with an air of respectful regard, very different from what must have been the feelings of a man who had trifled with a woman, or who had thought that she had trifled with him.
Count Altenberg rejoiced, that he had come without a moment's delay to Hungerford-Castle.
"You are really a good creature, my dear," continued Mrs. Hungerford to Lady Mary, "for being so anxious to have Caroline here——many a niece might be jealous of my affection, for certainly I love her as well as if she were my own child.——To morrow, Sir," said she, turning to Count Altenberg, "I hope I shall have the pleasure to introduce you to this young friend of ours, I shall feel proud to show her to a foreigner, whom I wish to prepossess in favor of my countrywomen."
The Count said, that he had already the honor of being introduced to Miss Caroline Percy——that he had seen her frequently at Falconer-Court, and at her own home——and that he was not surprised at the interest, which she excited at Hungerford-Castle.——Count Altenberg showed the interest she had excited in his own mind, whilst he pronounced, in the most sober manner in his power, those few words.
Mrs. Hungerford perceived it, nor had it escaped her observation, that he had forborne to mention the name of Percy, when enumerating the persons he had met at Falconer-Court. She was both too well bred in general, and too discreet on Caroline's account, to take any notice of this circumstance.——She passed immediately and easily to a different subject of conversation.
The next day Mrs. Mortimer returned with Caroline.——The Count saw the affection with which she was embraced by Mrs. Hungerford. The family had crowded to the door of the antichamber to receive her, so that Caroline, encompassed with friends, could not immediately see Count Altenberg, and he enjoyed these moments so exquisitely, that the idea which had previously engrossed all his soul, anxiety to see how she would look on meeting him thus unexpectedly, was absolutely forgotten. When the crowd opened, and Mrs. Hungerford led her forward, a smile of frank surprise and pleasure appeared on her countenance upon seeing Count Altenberg, but her color had been previously so much raised, and so much pleasure had sparkled in her eyes, that there was no judging what share of emotion was to be attributed to this surprise. He was, and he had reason to be satisfied with perceiving, that in the midst of the first pleasure of meeting intimate friends, and when she did not expect to meet any but friends, she was not chilled or disappointed by the sight of one who was, to her, as yet but a new acquaintance.——
After introducing Count Altenberg to Mrs. Mortimer, Mrs. Hungerford said, "Till I had my daughter and all my friends in full force about me, I prudently did not make any attempt, Count Altenberg, upon your liberty, but now, that you see my resources, I trust you will surrender yourself, without difficulty, my prisoner, as long as we can possibly detain you in this castle."
Never was man less disposed to refuse an invitation, than Count Altenberg at this moment.——He wrote to Mrs. Falconer immediately that farewell note which had shocked Miss Georgiana Falconer so much.
As Lord Oldborough was preparing to return to town, and likely to be engrossed by ministerial business, his Lordship, with less reluctance, relinquished his company, and the Count, with infinite satisfaction, found himself established at once upon a footing of intimacy at Hungerford-Castle. The letter he had intended to write to his father was now written and sent; but it was expressed in yet stronger terms than he had originally designed——he concluded, by conjuring his father, as he valued the happiness of his son, not to take a step in any of the treaties of marriage that had been planned for him, and besought him to write as soon as it was possible to relieve his mind from suspense, and to set him at liberty to declare his attachment, if, upon further acquaintance with the English lady who had touched his heart, he should feel any hope of making such an impression on her affections, as could induce her to make for him the great sacrifice of country——family——and friends.——And such a country——such a family——and such friends!——In the mean time, the hours and days passed on most happily at Hungerford-Castle. Every succeeding day discovered to him some new excellence in the object of his affection. Mrs. Hungerford, with judicious, delicate kindness, forbore all attempts to display even those qualities and talents in Caroline, which she most loved and admired, certain that she might safely leave them to the discernment of her lover. That Count Altenberg loved, Mrs. Hungerford had too much penetration to doubt; and it rejoiced her heart, and satisfied all her hopes, to see a prospect of her young friend's being united to such a man. Mrs. Mortimer felt as much joy and as much delicacy upon the subject as her mother showed; for they loved Caroline, and were as anxious for her happiness, as if she had been their own sister or daughter, and felt almost as much scruple of praising or seeming to bring her forward upon any occasion. The grateful esteem of Mr. Barclay, now free from every feeling of passion, appearing, indeed undiminished even in the height of a passion for her friend; the perfect confidence and affection evinced by the warm-hearted Lady Mary Pembroke for Caroline, all united and conspired to one and the same end: that which could not have been prepared or produced by any art or address, however consummate, was now the effect of plain truth, and the reward of real merit. Count Altenberg, in common with every man of sense and knowledge of the world, knew that it is in her own family, in domestic life, he should judge of a woman's real disposition and temper——and that from the manner of her friends towards her he can form an estimate of the past, and, consequently, the best augury of the future.
In that near examination in domestic life, so dangerous to many women of the highest pretensions, Caroline shone superior. His love approved by the whole strength of his reason, and exalted by the natural enthusiasm of his temper, was now at the highest. His impatience was extreme for the arrival of that answer to his letter, which he hoped would set him at liberty to declare his passion.
The letter at last arrived; very different were it's contents from what he had hoped. A previous letter from his father to him, sent in a packet with government despatches by Mr. Cunningham Falconer, had not reached him.——That letter, of which his father now sent him a copy, contained an account of the steps which had been taken, relative to a treaty of marriage between his son and the Countess Christina, a lady of high birth, beauty, and talents, who had lately appeared for the first time at that court.——Count Altenberg's father described the Countess as one who, he was sure, must charm his son——and as the alliance was eagerly desired by the lady's friends, and the alliance in every respect honorable for his whole family, the old Count was impatient to have the affair concluded. Receiving no answer to this letter, and pressed by circumstances, he had gone forward in his son's name with the treaty, and had pledged him so far, that there was now, he declared, no possibility of retracting with honor. He lamented that his son should, in the mean time, have taken a fancy to an English lady; but, as Count Albert's last letter gave the assurance to his family, that he would not take any decisive step till he should receive an answer, nothing could have been done in England, that would commit his honor——absence would soon efface a transient impression——the advantages of the alliance proposed in his own country would appear stronger, the more they should be examined.——The charms of the Countess Christina, with her superior understanding, would have an irresistible effect——and, concluded the old Count, "I beseech you, my dear Albert, as your friend——I will say more——I command you as your father, return to your own country as soon as you can obtain passports after receiving this letter."——
In consequence of this letter, a sudden change appeared in Count Altenberg——he was grave and absent;——instead of seeking Caroline's company and conversation as usual, he studiously avoided her, and when he did speak to her, his behaviour was so cold and reserved——so unlike his natural or his former manner, that the difference struck not only Caroline herself, but Rosamond and Mrs. Percy, who were, at this time, at Hungerford-Castle.——It happened that, on the very day, and nearly at the very hour, when Count Altenberg received this letter from his father, of which letter no one knew any thing but himself, there arrived at Hungerford-Castle another of Mrs. Hungerford's nieces, a young lady of uncommon beauty, and of the most attractive and elegant manners, Lady Florence Pembroke.——She was just returned from Italy with an uncle, who had resided there for some time. Count Altenberg, from the moment he was introduced to Lady Florence, devoted to her his whole attention——he sat beside her,——whenever he conversed, his conversation was addressed to her; and the evident absence of mind he occasionally betrayed, and all the change in his manner seemed to have been caused by her Ladyship's appearance. Some sage philosophers know little more of cause and effect, than that the one immediately precedes the other; no wonder then that Rosamond, not famous for the accuracy of her reasoning, should, in this instance, be misled by appearances.——To support her character for prudence, Rosamond determined not to seem to observe what passed, and not to mention her suspicions to her sister; who, as she remarked, was sensible of the Count's altered manner; and who, as she rightly conjectured, did not perceive it with indifference.——The accomplishments, good sense, and exalted sentiments of Count Altenberg had made an unusual impression on the mind of Caroline. She felt for him the first delightful sensations of love. His dignified manners, and that delicacy, which real merit always possesses, banished every fear of presumption on his part, and allowed her opportunity to see the development of his character, and to compare it with her own ideas of excellence. He had paid her few compliments, fewer than she had often received from gentlemen, who meant nothing by their flattery; yet he had professed high admiration and esteem, and his attentions to her, unknown to himself, had passed the bounds of mere politeness, and the trifling appearance of common gallantry;——He had never declared his love, but involuntarily it had betrayed itself on several occasions. Insensibly Caroline was thus led to feel for him more than she dared to avow even to herself, when the sudden change in his manner awakened her from this delightful forgetfulness of every object that was unconnected with her new feelings, and suddenly arrested her steps as she seemed entering the paradise of love and hope.——
At night, when they were retiring to rest, and Caroline and Rosamond were in their mother's room, Rosamond, unable longer to keep her prudent silence, gave vent to her indignation against Count Altenberg in general reflections against the fickleness of man. Even men of the best understanding were, she said, but children of a larger growth——pleased with change——preferring always the newest to the fairest, or the best.——Caroline did not accede to these accusations.
Rosamond, astonished and provoked, exclaimed,
"Is it possible that you are so blind, as not to see that Count Altenberg ..." ... Rosamond stopped short, for she saw Caroline's color change.——She stood beside her mother motionless, and with her eyes fixed on the ground.——Rosamond moved a chair towards her.——
"Dearest mother! beloved sister," cried Caroline, "I have reason, too much reason, to blush——and you will blush for me."
"What can be the matter?" cried Rosamond, much alarmed.—— "How she trembles! I never saw Caroline so much agitated before."
"Sit down, my dear love," said her mother, tenderly taking Caroline's hand, "sit down and compose yourself.——I am sure you cannot have done any thing ... nor ever will ... that can give us cause to blush."
"That I am certain of,"——said Rosamond, "as certain as that I am alive."
"Do not, pray! do not be so secure, your confidence in me abashes me still more," said Caroline, hiding her face, as she leaned on her mother's shoulder.—— "My dear mother, you required one, and but one promise from me,——I gave it you, firmly intending to keep it ... and yet I fear ... that you will think I have broken it.——I promised to tell you whenever I felt the first symptom of preference for any person.——I did not know my own mind till this day.——Indeed I thought I felt nothing but what every body else expressed, esteem and admiration."
"In common minds," replied Mrs. Percy, "esteem and admiration may be far, very far, safely distant, from love; but in such a mind as yours, Caroline, the step from perfect esteem to love is dangerously near——scarcely perceptible."
"Why dangerously?" cried Rosamond,—— "Why should not perfect love follow perfect esteem? that is the very thing I desire for Caroline. Count Altenberg is all that we could wish for her, and ..."
"Stop," cried Caroline, "Oh, my dear sister; as you wish me to be good and happy, name him to me no more——for it cannot be."——
"Why?" exclaimed Rosamond, with a look of astonishment and dismay—— "Why cannot it be? It can, it must——it shall be."——
Caroline sighed, and turning from her sister, as if she dreaded to listen to her, she repeated,—— "No;——I will not flatter myself——I see that it cannot be——I have observed the change in his manner.——The pain it gave me first awakened me to the state of my own affections.——I have given you some proof of sincerity by speaking thus immediately of the impression made on my mind, by making this avowal at the moment when I was convinced that hope was vain.——You will acknowledge the effort was difficult, the confession humiliating.——Mother, will you answer me one question ... a question, which I am afraid to ask ... did you, or do you think that any body else perceived my sentiments by my manner?——Caroline paused, and her mother and sister set her heart at ease on that point."
"After all," said Rosamond, addressing herself to her mother, "I may be mistaken in what I hinted about Count Altenberg.——I own I thought the change in his manner arose from ... Lady Florence Pembroke. ... I am sorry I said any thing of it. ... I dare say when he sees more of her ... she is very pretty, very pleasing, very elegant, and amiable no doubt, but surely, in comparison with Caroline. ..."
"Oh, do not make any such comparison, my dear sister, do you think I would put myself in competition with Mrs. Hungerford's niece?"——said Caroline.
"I am not certain," said Rosamond, "that there is any rivalship in the case."
"I am certain that there shall be none," said Caroline,—— "Envy or jealousy shall never contaminate my mind.——The best, the noblest, the most delightful feelings of the heart, may lead to the meanest, the most odious.——I have, within a few hours, felt enough to be aware of this.——I will leave nothing to chance.——A woman should never expose herself to any hazard.——I will preserve my peace of mind, my own esteem.——I will preserve my dear and excellent friends,——and that I may preserve some of them, I am sensible that I must now quit them."——
Mrs. Percy was going to speak, but Rosamond interposed.
"Oh what have I done!" exclaimed she,—— "Imprudent creature that I was, why did I speak? why did I open your eyes, Caroline? I had resolved not to say a single word of the change I perceived in the Count."
"And did you think I should not perceive it?" said Caroline. "Oh, you little know how quickly ... the first look ... the first tone of his voice ... But of that I will think no more——Only, let me assure you, that you my dear Rosamond did no harm——It was not what any body said that alarmed me,——Before you pointed it out, I had felt that change in his manner, for which I cannot account."
"You cannot account?——Can you doubt that Lady Florence is the cause?" said Rosamond.
"Yes, I have great doubts," said Caroline.
"So have I,"——said Mrs. Percy.
"I cannot believe that a man of his sense and character would be so suddenly captivated——I do not mean to detract from Lady Florence's merits, but before they could make the impression you suspect on Count Altenberg, there must have been time for them to be known and appreciated——shall I go on, and tell you all that has passed in my mind?——Yes, my mother and sister should see me as I am——perhaps under the delusion of vanity ... or self love ... or ... But if I am wrong, you will set me right ... you will help me to set myself right——It has never been declared in words, therefore perhaps I am vain, and presumptuous, to believe or to imagine——yet I do feel persuaded, that I am preferred——that I am ..."
"Loved, Oh, yes," said Rosamond, "a thousand times I have thought so, I have felt certain, that Count Altenberg loved you, but now I am convinced, alas! of my mistake——convinced at least that his love is of that light, changeable sort, which is not worth having——not worth your having."
"That last," cried Caroline—— "I can never believe,"——She stopped, and blushed deeply—— "What does my mother say?" added she, in a timid voice.
"My mother I am sure thought once that he loved Caroline? Did not you mother?" said Rosamond.
"Yes, my dear," answered Mrs. Percy, "I have thought so——And I am not yet convinced, that we were mistaken,——but I entirely agree with Caroline, that this is a subject, upon which we ought not to let our thoughts dwell——upon which she in particular ought not in propriety, in prudence, to allow herself to think.——Till a man declares his love, there must ever be danger and impropriety in a woman's believing in his attachment."——
"Oh, so I have thought, so I have said on former occasions, how often, how sincerely!" said Caroline—— "But this is the first time I ever felt it difficult to practise what I know to be wise and right——Hope!——Sweet deceiver!——No——Vain deceiver——I will not, since I ought not to listen to you——Mother, I beg it as a favor, that you will take me away from this place ... this place, where but yesterday, I thought myself so happy." ...
"But why, Caroline, why mother, should she do this," expostulated Rosamond—— "If she thinks, if you think that he loves her, if you do not believe that he has changed, if you do not believe that he is struck with a new face, why should Caroline go?——For Heaven's sake, do not take her away, till you are sure, that it is necessary."
"I will be guided by her opinion," said Mrs. Percy, "I can depend entirely on her own prudence."
"Indeed, I think it will be most prudent, that I should not indulge myself in staying longer," said Caroline—— "From what I have seen of Count Altenberg, we have reason to think, that he acts in general from wise and good motives. We should therefore believe, that in the present instance his motives are good and adequate——I cannot suspect that he acts from caprice——What the nature of the obstacle may be, I can only guess——But I am inclined to think, that some opposing duty" ...
"His duty," said Rosamond, "I suppose he must have known before to day.——What new duty can he have discovered——No, no; men are not so very apt in love matters to think of opposing duties, as women do——Much more likely, that he has heard something to your disadvantage, Caroline, from the Falconers. I can tell you, that Lady Frances Arlington gave me a hint, that strange things had been said, and great pains taken to misrepresent you to the Count."
"If injurious representations have been made of me to him," replied Caroline, "he will in time discover the falsehood of such report; or, if he believe them without examination, he is not what I imagine him to be——No——I am convinced he has too noble a mind, too just an understanding, to be misled by calumny."——
Mrs. Percy declared she was decidedly of this opinion. "The obstacle, whatever it may be, my dear mother," continued Caroline, with the earnest tone and expression of countenance of a person of strong mind, at once feeling and thinking deeply—— "The difficulty, whatever it is, must be either such as time will obviate or increase; the obstacle must be either conquerable or unconquerable; if he love me, as I thought he did, if he have the energy of character I think he possesses, he will conquer it, if it can be conquered——if it be unconquerable, what misery, what madness, to suffer my affections to be irrevocably engaged! or what base vanity to wish, if it were in my power, to inspire him with an unhappy passion!——Then, in every point of view, Mother, surely it is best, that I should leave this ... dangerous place," said Caroline, smiling.—— "Yet you are both so happy here, I am sorry to be the cause."
"My Love," said her mother, "to us all things are trifles, compared with what it is right and becoming that you should do. I entirely approve and applaud your prudence and resolution——what you desire shall be done, as soon as possible. We will go home to morrow morning."
"But, my dear Ma'am! so suddenly! consider," cried Rosamond, "how very strange this will appear to Mrs. Hungerford, and to every body!"——
"My dear Rosamond, these are some of the small difficulties, the false delicacies, which so often prevent people from doing what is right, or what is essentially necessary for the security of the peace and happiness of their whole lives," said Mrs. Percy.
"That is true," replied Rosamond, "and I do not object to doing the thing, but I only wish we had some good decent excuse for running away——You don't expect that Mrs. Hungerford will part with you without remonstrance, without struggle, without even inquiring, why you must run away?——I am sure I hope she will not ask me, for I am not prepared with an answer——and my face would never do, and would give way at the first glance of her penetrating eye——What will you say to Mrs. Hungerford?"
"The truth,"——replied Caroline,—— "Mrs. Hungerford has ever treated me with so much kindness, has shown me so much affection and esteem, feels such a warm interest in all that concerns me, and is herself of so noble a character, that she commands my entire confidence——And she shall have it without reserve. Since my mother agrees with me in thinking, that Lady Florence has not been in any degree the cause of the change of manner we have observed, there can be no impropriety on that account in our speaking of the subject to Mrs. Hungerford——My honor is as safe I am convinced in her hands, as in my mother's ... as to the rest, it may be painful, humiliating ... but what is meant by confidence, by openness towards our friends? We are all of us ready enough to confess our virtues," said she, smiling ... "but our weaknesses, what humbles our pride to acknowledge, we are apt to find some delicate reason for keeping secret. Mother, if you do not disapprove of it, I wish you to tell Mrs. Hungerford the whole truth."
"Mrs. Percy entirely approved of Caroline's placing confidence in this excellent friend."——She observed, "that this was very different from the girlish gossipping sort of confidences, which are made often from one young lady to another, merely from the want of something to say, or the pleasure of prattling about love, or the hope of being encouraged by some weak young friend, to indulge some foolish passion."
The next morning, before Mrs. Hungerford had left her apartment, Mrs. Percy went to her, and explained the reasons, which induced Caroline to refuse herself the pleasure of prolonging her visit at Hungerford Castle.
Mrs. Hungerford was touched by the confidence, which Caroline placed in her; "believe me," said she—— "it is not misplaced——I feel all it's value——And must I lose her? I never parted with her without regret, and that regret increases the more I see of her. I almost forget that she is not my own, till I am called upon to relinquish her: but much as I value her, much as I enjoy her society, I cannot be so selfish, as to wish to detain her, when her peace of mind is at stake. How few, how very few are there, of all the various young women I know, who would have the good sense and resolution, I will say it, the integrity of mind, to act as she does! ——There is usually some sentimental casuistry, some cowardly fear, or lingering hope, that prevents young people in these circumstances from doing the plain right thing——Any thing but the plain right thing they are ready to do——and there is always some delicate reason for not telling the truth, especially to their friends——But our daughters, Mrs. Percy, are above these things."——With respect to Count Altenberg, Mrs. Hungerford said, that, from many observations she had made, she felt no doubt of his being strongly attached to Caroline.—— "Their characters, their understandings, are suited to each other; they have the same high views, the same magnanimity——With one exception ... you must allow a mother's partiality, to make an exception in favor of her own son,——with one exception, Count Altenberg is the man of all others, to whom I could wish to see Caroline united——I never till yesterday doubted that it would be——But I was as much struck with the change in his manner, as you have been.——I agree with Caroline, that some obstacle, probably of duty, has arisen——and I hope ... But no, I will imitate her example, and as you tell me she forbids herself to hope, so will I——if possible.——At all events she raises herself, high as she was in my esteem, still higher by her present conduct. Tell her so, my dear Mrs. Percy——you, her mother, may give this praise, without hurting her delicacy. And tell her, that, old as I am, I have not forgotten so completely the feelings of my youth, as not to be aware, that suspense in some situations is the worst of evils.——She may be assured, that my attention shall be as much awake, as even her mother's could be——And when any thing that I think important or decisive occurs, she shall hear from me immediately, or see me, unless I should lose the use of my limbs, or my faculties——Or unless my heart should totally change in one day——which she will not readily believe to be possible."——
A messenger came to summon Mrs. Hungerford to breakfast——Soon afterwards a ride was proposed by Mrs. Mortimer. Count Altenberg was to be one of this party, and he looked for a moment surprised and disappointed, when he found that Caroline was not going with them——But he forbore to ask, why she did not ride, and endeavored to occupy himself solely in helping Mrs. Mortimer to mount her horse——Rosamond was glad to perceive, that he did not well know what he was doing.
Before they returned from their ride, the Percys were on their way to the Hills.——Till this moment the sight of home, even after a short absence, had, on returning to it, always been delightful to Caroline; but now, for the first time in her life, she was not sensible to this delight; every object seemed to have lost it's brightness. In the stillness of retirement, which she used to love, she felt something sad and lifeless. The favorite glade, which formerly she thought the very spot so beautifully described by Dryden, as the scene of his "Lady in the bower;" even this she found had lost it's charm. New to love, Caroline was not till now aware, that it throws a radiance upon every object, which, when passed away, seems to leave all nature changed.
To banish recollections, which she knew that she ought not to indulge, she employed herself unremittingly. But her mind did not turn with it's wonted energy to her occupations, nor was it acted upon by those small motives of ordinary life, by which it had formerly been excited. When reading, her thoughts would wander even from her favorite authors: Every subject they discussed would remind her of some conversation that had passed at Hungerford Castle; some coincidence or difference of opinion would lead her to digress; some observation more just or more striking; some better expression, or some expression which pleased her better than the author's, would occur, and the book was laid down. These digressions of fancy were yet more frequent, when she was endeavoring to fix her attention to drawing, needle-work, or to any other sedentary employment. Exercise she found useful.——She spent more time than usual in planting and in gardening.——A simple remedy.——But practical philosophy frequently finds those remedies the simplest and the best, which Providence has put within the reach of all.
One morning, soon after her return home, when she was alone and busy in her garden, she heard voices at a distance; as they approached nearer, she thought she distinguished Mrs. Hungerford's. She listened, and looked towards the path whence the voices had come.——All was silent——but, a minute afterwards, she saw Mrs. Hungerford coming through the narrow path in the thicket; Caroline at first sprang forward to meet her——Then stopped short, her heart beating violently——she thought that, perhaps, Mrs. Hungerford was accompanied by Count Altenberg; but Mrs. Hungerford was alone. Ashamed of the hope which had glanced across her mind, and of the sudden stop which had betrayed her thoughts, Caroline now went forward, blushing, yet with ingenuous dignity.
Mrs. Hungerford embraced her with tenderness, and then assuming a cheerful tone——
"Your mother and sister wanted to persuade me," said she, "that I should never find my way to you——but I insisted upon it that I could.——Had I not the instinct for a true friend to guide me?——So now let me sit down and rest myself on this pretty seat,——a very comfortable throne!——and that is saying much for a throne.——So these are your territories?" continued Mrs. Hungerford, looking round, and talking with an air of playfulness, to give Caroline time to recover herself.
"Why did you never invite me to your garden?——Perhaps, you think me a mere fire-side, arm-chair old woman, dead to all the beauties of nature; but, I can assure you, that I have, all my life, from principle, cultivated this taste, which I think peculiarly suited to women, salutary not only to their health, but to their happiness and their virtues——their domestic virtues increasing the interest they take in their homes, heightening those feelings of associated pleasure, which extend from persons to places, and which are at once a proof of the strength of early attachments, and a security for their continuance to the latest period of life. Our friend, Count Altenberg, was observing to me the other day, that we Englishwomen, among our other advantages, from our modes of life, from our spending so many months of the year in the country, have more opportunity of forming and indulging these tastes, than is usual among foreign ladies in the same rank of life.——Fortunately for us, we are not like Mr. Clay's French Countess, or Duchess, who declared, that she hated innocent pleasures."
After mentioning French Clay, Mrs. Hungerford passed to a comparison between him and Count Altenberg.——She had met Mr. Clay in town, and disliked him.—— "He is an Englishman only by birth, and a Frenchman only by affectation.——Count Altenberg, on the contrary, a foreigner by birth, has all the tastes and principles that make him worthy to be an Englishman. I am convinced that, if he had liberty of choice, he would prefer residing in England to living in any country in the world.——Indeed, he expressed that sentiment at parting from us yesterday."——
"At parting!"——said Caroline—— "He is gone then."
Caroline wished to ask where?——and whether he was gone for ever?——yet she continued silent——and became extremely pale.
Mrs. Hungerford, without taking any notice of her emotion, continued, and answered all the questions which Caroline wished to ask.
"He is gone back to Germany to his own court——recalled, as he told me, by some imperious duty."——
"So far you see," my dear, "we were right, as those usually are, who judge from general principles.——It was not indeed to be credited," continued Mrs. Hungerford, "that a man of his character and understanding should act merely from caprice.——What the nature of the duty may be, whether relating to his duty as a public or a private man, he did not explain.——The latter I fear.——I apprehend some attachment or engagement, that will prevent his return to England.——In this case he has done most honorably, at whatever risk or pain to himself, to avoid any attempt to engage your affections," my dear.—— "And you have, in these trying circumstances, acted as becomes your sex and yourself."——
"I hope so," said Caroline, timidly—— "my mother, and Rosamond endeavored to reassure me on one point ... You have seen more since, and must therefore be better able to judge ... Count Altenberg has none of that presumption of manner, which puts a woman upon her guard against his inferences.——But, in secret, do you think he ever suspected ...?"
"I cannot, my love, tell what passes in the secret recesses of man's heart ... much more difficult to penetrate than woman's," replied Mrs. Hungerford, smiling.—— "But let this satisfy you,——by no word, hint, or look, could I ever guess, that he had formed such a suspicion ... Suspicion, I will not call it ... such a hope.——Of your whole family he spoke in terms of the highest regard.——Of you he dared not trust himself to say much——but the little he did venture to say was expressive of the highest respect and esteem,——more he did not, and ought not, I am convinced, to have allowed himself."——
"I am satisfied——quite satisfied," said Caroline, relieving her heart by a deep sigh,—— "and, I thank you, my kind Mrs. Hungerford.——You have put this subject at rest for ever in my mind.——If Count Altenberg can love me with honor, he will——If he cannot, Heaven forbid! I should wish it."
From this time forward, Caroline never spoke more upon the subject, never mentioned the name of Count Altenberg.——She exerted all the strong command she possessed over herself, to conquer the languor and indolence, to which she had found herself disposed.
It is a difficult task to restore what may be called the tone of the mind; to recover the power of being acted upon by common and every day motives, after sensibility has been unusually excited. Where the affections have been deeply and long engaged, this is a task, which the most severe philosophy cannot accomplish, without the aid of Time——and of that superior power, which it would be irreverent here to name.
By using no concealment with her friends, by permitting no self-delusion, by having the courage to confess the first symptom of partiality of which she was conscious, Caroline prevented all danger, and put it out of her own power, to nourish a preference into a passion, which must ultimately have made herself and her friends unhappy. Beside the advantages which she derived from her literary tastes, and her habits of varying her occupations, she, at this time, found great resources in her warm and affectionate attachment to her own family.——
She had never yet arrived at that state of egoism, which marks the height of passion, when all interests and affections sink and vanish before one exclusive and tyrant sentiment.——
